I LOVE MY SON MORE THAN MY DAUGHTER
I’m married and a mother of two. The older child is a boy, who’s 8 years old and the younger one is a girl, turning 5 this month. I’m here to confess that I love my son MORE than I love my daughter. As bizarre as it sounds. I don’t think it’s actually that bad. I think it’s natural to feel this way.
My husband also says that it’s normal and thinks I’ll soon develop more love and care for her, but I feel like I’m awful sometimes. I’ve heard this a little too many times that you love ALL your kids the same, or that they’re all special in their unique ways, etc. Well, they may be.. but I don’t feel that at all.
To me, my son’s perfect! And my daughter.. not even close. I do love her but as she’s growing older and developing a personality, I can’t seem to cope with it. There’s quite a difference between her and him. I try my best not to compare them or treat one less than the other, but sometimes, I fail. My husband thinks I should spend more time with my daughter -alone- so that we’ll start bonding and I’ll develop ‘that’ connection, but it’s hard for me as I soon get frustrated and it’s really exhausting.
Hands down, I love her! Of course, I do! But she’s not the apple of my eye.
I think my daughter knows about this.. makes me sad. I try my best to hide it and not act it out no matter what the situation is. But there are times when I can’t keep the balance and I know she has sensed it by now and is sure about it.