Guys I am really heart broken and just need to get this off my chest.
I burnt the last photograph I had of her today. My crush, the love of my life.
I met her about a few years ago and we became friends and over a short span of time we got very close to each other. So close that I couldn’t even think about not talking to her for a day and started imagining a life where we were lovers. However, I never clearly confessed to her as I didn’t want to hurt her and felt that it may spoil our friendship that was very precious to me.
I felt that it may be too soon and that I might pressure her into something she wasn’t ready for. But I dropped hints from time to time and every time I would try to talk to her about it she would just ignore it or say she wasn’t ready for love or anything at all. I feared getting rejected from her because that would break my heart and leave me with no hope, no option.
Meanwhile, she found love somewhere else and our soon our friendship started to fade. And after few months she got married to him. This broke me into pieces as she meant the universe to me. And ever since then, I’m trying hard to move on.
Today I saw her in the street, she looked happy and content. I wished I mustered up the courage before she got married and told her how much she meant to me. I did try hard, but I think I should’ve tried harder and now it’s of no use. We aren’t friends anymore. But I wish her all the best for her life. And I think I’ll always love her, I still do. But every day, I try to take a step forward- trying to move on.
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